Lost and confused!

All I can think is nothing and all I can say is nothing but what I know is everything running at the speed of light leaving me all alone behind. So many words to express yet I feel out off words.

It is that simple yet seems so complicated. Lost, confused and troubled is all that’s left within me.

Staring at the sky, filled with bright stars one lonely night with thousands of thoughts running up and down wishing for a shooting star for what I really need is that single wish to be fulfilled!

Another hobby of mine!

I just love cooking, to be precise baking sounds the right word and I usually spend my time watching TLC and Fox history channel where most of the time cooking and baking shows are aired. I just love watching and noting the ingredients and procedures down so that later I can do self experiment in the kitchen.

Kitchen, I would describe it as my heaven. I just enjoy myself smelling, tasting and experimenting with the foods out there in kitchen, always eager to learn something new. 

My mom will always be there to taste and judge my dishes. She would say “It’s okay, concentrate more the next time you do that” even if I do some errors like less salt, more oil etc.  She was the one who taught me to knead flour, if not for her I wouldn’t have know what I know now and am very thankful to her.

So baking is another hobby, desire, interest of mine which makes me happy and satisfied.

Learning something new.

To experience and to learn something new in life is always amazing. It has been quite a time learning how to drive and I feel so good. Mom has been my teacher and she has been very calm with me the whole time.

I am enjoying each and every minute in the driver's seat with all those amazing stuffs which I am the only one touching and using. I feel like going whoo-hoo all the time. It's really fun driving. I love doing everything, from the starting of engine till the parking of the car but it's kind a sad when the clutch and accelerator timing doesn't match due to my foot coordination. But in all it's really awesome.

Mom never allows me to drive on my own on the highways for now. But she sure did promise to allow me sometime soon when she feels that I have the confidence enough to tackle with other vehicles on the road. I am just so eagerly waiting for that day to come.

So here I come Thimphu-Paro Highway sometime soon..so be ready to face me. :)

This is life, Suck it up!

“Life” is what I really am facing now and as what my friend says “This is life, Suck it up!” I guess that is what I should do. Decide or I will end up with no outcome. But I don’t know what to do, indecisive person as I always am...Sigh!

Just a simple poem ^_^

The way you look, the way you smile

It’s intoxicating.

The way you love, the way you care

It’s amazing.

The way you act when you get tipsy

It’s amusing.

The way you write, the way you text

It’s sweet.

The way you stay hushed when we are together

It’s hilarious.

Nevertheless I feel wonderful looking at you wordlessly

For I know you are a person of less words

With a handsome heart.

For My Best Friends!

The first time I met you all, I had those feeling,

Something different, something incredible, something unique about all of you.

And with time we all became close as we grew despite all the differences.

My life couldn’t be happier without you all in it.

I just want you all to know how much you all mean to me

And to thank you all for being such a great friends.

People come, people go.

But you all will always remain in my heart.

Love you all <3

Writing my desire!

And again, it has been a while since I last wrote. Actually I didn’t know what to write till now and today am back with tangling thoughts of mine.

I write, but why??? That was the first thing which popped into my mind today: /

And after thinking a lot, going through it wisely, it just came out that writing is a desire, my fantasy where I can write anything what I want to, nobody there to stop me.

Writing is something that has kept me going, like writing small notes and thoughts in a book whenever I feel like I am out of place and this has helped me go through and I am happy.

I enjoy writing and that’s my thought for the day!

Hehe...^_^

Death and Impermanence

Death is inevitable, it occurs to all, one or the other way. No one can escape death; everyone will have to pass through it. And one should always be aware and prepared to face it.

It is always reminded to us in everything we do, for example, if we twist our ankle and fall, this is telling us to remind our self of death, a sign showing that death can happen in anyways.

Sufferings are caused by desires, attachments, ill thinking, etc. So one should try to avoid all these things with time so that at the time of departing from one’s body only the positive environment will float rather than negative.

It is hard but one can overcome it, it will take a lot of time indeed but one should have patience, path to nirvana is always not so easy. One should suffer but can succeed.

Actually if we think deeply, everything is just temporary, tong pa ne, even our body. At the time of death, we have to leave our body behind.  Nothing remains till the end. Impermanence is what that is called.

So get reminded of our self about death and impermanence always, everyday and feel the difference in oneself, that changing attitude of oneself. It feels great.

All The Best!